I am tired...maybe headed to weary. I need to slow down. My family needs to slow down. I find myself doing things that I feel people are wanting me to do--not necessarily the things that are best for me or my family. I want some time to relax, to sit, to veg out. I want to give my brain and my heart a rest from everything. Spring and summer are hard on me...too many marked anniversaries of illness and death. Years have passed. But it doesn't seem to matter. I can be drawn back to the very moment of it all in an instant. That is so draining and tiring. It tends to make me think of myself alot, too. I think that is just what Satan wants. He wants me to focus on myself; to get caught up in weariness; to become ineffective; to feel sorry for myself.
I don't want that at all. Dear God, keep me from the deceit of Satan.
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